listening to confidence by ocean alley
(i’m not even bothering with capitalization at this point. that’s how exhausted i am with this entire year).
there are still three major schedules before the law school year officially ends for us. There’s one more make up class tomorrow, a sunday, from 5:30 pm to 8:30 pm. in the morning of monday, we have a “caravan” which i haven’t bothered asking what it is exactly. finally, there’s the “year-end party” where we gather and teachers will finally be friendly and tell us about their tough loving and celebrate about, i don’t know, how much we suffered? … and i won’t bother with that anymore.
the make up class tomorrow, i still have strength for. she’s one of the teachers we genuinely like.
but i’ll really be looking forward to monday until the 3rd of january. i shall not be fully resting. i shall use the time to study law, of course.
i love studying our laws. i really do. it’s just the teachers and the vile administration that’s been hideous this past months.
no offense to my classmates, but i hope to not see them ever in these 2 weeks.
i won’t be brushing my teeth a lot too. or showering. or bothering with a deodorant. i won’t cut my nails. i won’t clean my room. i won’t do anything my spirit won’t want me to do.
and i think i’ll try a little bit of hunger. because i had gotten through the year by eating a lot of junk and my stomach had been digesting nonstop. so it’ll be good to let the digestive rest.
my writing style still hasn’t improved but this is mainly trauma dumping.
thank you for still sticking by me
it’s been a tiring, tiring, year
I’m sorry to hear how trying it is. I have heard people say that studying law over here is hell, too. I hope you make it through with your sanity intact. Don’t lose your love for life and sense of creativity.