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My New Mantra For Quitting Smoking | New Video From Academy of Ideas: "Why Suffering can Promote Strength and Health" | New Crush: Austin Butler | Happy Birthday To My Husband Shownu! hahahaha
Listening to: Glimpse of Us by Joji
My New Mantra For Quitting Smoking
This morning, I woke to an unusual thought. I usually wake up at 4:30 AM so we can prepare for and open our store an hour later. But really, I only go to the store in the morning so I may enjoy a cigarette or two. Everyone in the house hates smoking. Apart from the obvious health risks, it just smells bad. And of course, there are babies here.
I’ve been smoking for over a decade now and I have tried to quit for God knows how many times. The most successful stretch was three months. It’s never occurred since and even during the pandemic lockdowns, I still found time to escape the house for a quick bum. My family all thinks I’ve quit. That’s why I hide.
I hate smoking too. I’m a smoking who hates smoking. I’m tired of it. But it’s addiction. It’s my body forever chemically changed to crave from it. But I woke up today with this striking thought: If I get sick because of smoking, shit brother is going to take care of me.
It means that should I become incapacitated, hospitalized and/or bedridden in an capacity due to smoking, my brother— the person I hate most right now— will have to somehow care for me. And I hate this man and I can’t stand even being in the same room with him.
I usually smoke 10 a day. But now I’ve only smoked two. And whenever I want to smoke or get the craving, this thought pops into my head now. If I get sick because of smoking, shit brother is going to take care of me. This has just happened today.
So, this is going to be my mantra now when I feel the urge to smoke.
Wow, even the most vile person has value I suppose.
New Video From Academy of Ideas
I love this YouTube Channel. I can honestly say its videos are one of the great forces that are helping me get through the pandemic and my misery of being away from my beloved Metro Manila. They’re a channel who know how to read the times and make appropriate philosophical video responses. I loved their first video in response to the Coronavirus pandemic How To Fortify The Mind In Times of Crisis. They’re not as childish in thinking as School of Life.
Why Suffering can Promote Strength and Health is their latest upload yet. Certainly their most intriguingly titled video, if you ask me. But oh— oh!— did they make sense. As always. I so would recommend this to anyone.
New Crush: Austin Butler
Good Lord is this man dreamy! He’s definitely one of those “unusual good-looking” types that you can’t help but like, like Benedict Cumberbatch, or like, a sloth. But it’s his voice, man. That’s the huskiest, lowest, sexiest drawl I’ve ever heard. So intoxicating!
Happy Birthday To My Husband Shownu! hahahaha
Every Monbebe is showing and sending their love and admiration to my husband, Shownu, right now. He’s currently in serving their military but we all miss him, our favorite leader, a lot. Found this very funny clip that’s almost too relatable:
Happy Birthday Shownu!!
Stay Safe Everyone!
xoxo