yey passed the lsat :)

one more task to do hope i get in~

listening to: best of brahms- classical music gems

mine mine mine didn’t share.

in Small Town, one cannot fully get rid of facebook. despite what the experts say on how it corrodes our minds and behaviors, small business use fb so they may freely communicate with customers and update their stores. even government offices do so, even universities. like the one i’m aiming to enter and study.

the lsats happened a few weeks back. it took all morning, from 6:30 AM until close to noon. a friend of mine took it too but her room was on the other side of the hallway. i don’t usually talk about any kind of exam after taking it, but this time i grabbed my friend, pushed her out of the school to have lunch together and insisted that we share experiences. i most definitely didn’t do well with the math part. 45 whole items and i was only confident in one. the english part was easy for me, the essay was easy. what i found mildly challenging were the abstract reasoning pairing nonsense— i don’t even recall. my friend said that the proctor actually gave her the answer key. i genuinely couldn’t tell if she was kidding.

my proctor said to constantly check the school fb page for news and updates. that’s difficult to do personally because i want things done right away. but check i did. until such time they announced that the results were available for collection.

i took a tricycle going to the school, not wanting to drive, because i felt a vibrating high in my body. sort of like that feeling when you’re just about to drop from a rollercoaster after the slow climb. i felt i was in no condition to drive. i think i felt that way because in my soul i was sure to pass but was completely restless. i needed to see and touch and read the proof for sure.

and i did pass! the testing center instructed me to go to the college of law for further instructions. a lady informed me that they will post the schedule for interview. only the top 100 passers would be eligible. last week, i saw my name. my interview was set on the first week of july. sadly my friend who took the test with me did not pass.

i soared as i was walking on campus, this campus that might in the future be my own. i felt so elated because even though i felt that the lsats were somewhat easy, it was still sort of confirmation that i wasn’t dumb at all.

in my first law school experience, i got the lowest score, all the time, for close to two years. i’ve been consistently told all my life that i was intelligent. although it takes a certain amount of hubris to actually accept such a compliment, i will not too humble not to self-asses, and accept the fact that i’m not dumb. the first law school experience pummeled me to the very depths of my insecurities. the result slip on my hand, with a bold “92” gave me a little hopeful boost.

the only hurdle right now before the enrollment is the interview, coming in a few more days. i’m to prepare my curriculum vitae, bring a pen and paper (what’s that about?) and present myself in courtroom corporate attire. i’m feeling jittery typing this.

yesterday i met with a friend, a former law school classmate who decided to transfer to the same school i’m trying to get in. her interview is also the week as mine. as much as i want to enter this new law school without a trace of my former law study experience, she’s one of the good ones, who abhors our previous experience just as much as i do. and this our Small Town, we only have two law school options.

with us was another friend who we haven’t seen in months because she hid in her room after being brought to the dean’s office to tell her she failed. she got kicked out of school. she’s going to Manila next week to check her options. one favorable option is to study online in Small Town but go to the her chosen Manila law school during exam week.

i’ve been trying to ask around as to how the interview is to be conducted, but my acquaintances studying in this school i’m trying to get in were surprisingly tight-lipped. so i’ll need to prepare thoroughly.

hope i pass!

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